i received your snailmail greeting card the day i moved in. thank you! it helped me feel that this is truly my home now - and it's always good to get something other than bills in the mail ;-)
what were "the events and aftermath of December 16th"?
Glad the "snailmail" arrived. On December 16th. I had a bit too much red wine (not on purpose) and ended up in St. Vincent's hospital. I was queried about my state of mind and not released until I had divulged my problems. As far as possible I explained those problems which fall into three categories. The bottom line was the doctor decided "ok, you've consumed too much alcohol" and ignored point three which he deemed outside his capacity or field of expertise.
The "repercussions" include the fact that despite the fact I recovered (simply too much wine in a short space of time) I am now no doubt listed as having been transported to St. Vincents with a view to assessment on the basis of psychological problems.
It's what I do about the real world matters which upset me enough to vomit. Even though I had three days to overcome the effects of the alcohol I was still feeling nauseous (prone to vomit) on Tuesday, even though I didn't allow it to show.
i must assume that you displayed symptoms more alarming than just the usual indications of excessive alcohol consumption - when i was in Melbourne, public drunkenness, even to the point of vomiting in the street, was very common, especially on weekend nights, and always went completely unremarked. of course, the atmosphere might be very different in Sydney; i don't know.
as for the real world... you have demonstrated, several times now, that even when you're unemployed, you manage quite well, and that you don't usually have too much trouble finding employment again. i do understand how you can be very worried about it anyway, though.
my own "real world" situation is pretty grim. the modest "profit" we gained by selling the old house has largely already been spent on the most pressing of our debts. we have no other source of money. my software company could make a profit from the project we've been developing... but we need some start-up money, enough to run the company on for a year to a year and a half, before having a finished product on the market. so far, i haven't found anyone willing to provide us with that start-up capital. failing that, my husband and i have to get jobs - he hasn't worked in close to five years, and i haven't worked in more than 26 years. i think he can still manage, but my own skills (as a radio technician) are woefully out of date (never mind that i could catch up easily enough). we've got about enough money left to pay three months rent on this new place, and then we're sunk. thinking about this situation too much makes me somewhat queasy...
Oh. I didn't get "drunk" in the accepted sense of the word. I simply consumed too much red wine at "The Basement" (a jazz club / restaurant) as part of their Xmas dinner. There was no sense of intoxication when I consumed the red wine and thus no warning signs that it would eventually overpower me.
I was sufficient "with it" to turn up on Tuesday and have a coffee with the guy who employed me. He simply said "it's no great deal" and indeed there is a demand (albeit limited) for my skills. There are "issues" though and I can either follow through on them and create more issues. It's a question of how I deal with it. This might involve the Federal Attorney General and or (more probably) the Federal Ombudsman.
Well. You're "ok" for at least 3 months. Perhaps you are thinking "big". Perhaps you should be thinking of things such as "ironing services" or even typing up manuscripts...leaflets through the door (that sort of thing).
It sounds as though there is a "community" where you are - that is a larger place than Werrington. Perhaps making yourself and indeed your situation known might help.
I've been watching the French and Russian news on SBS. The lead stories are all about tidal waves (tsumari).
i've always found that (for my own metabolism, at any rate) wine produces much nastier after-effects than distilled spirits, even if one consumes more alcohol in the form of "hard liquor" than one would by drinking wine - and red wine is even nastier than white wine. i've been told that it's a combination of the "impurities" in wine, which provide the flavor and color, and the sulfites that are added to wine as a preservative - some people react badly to sulfites. that's why (to quote the eminent Count Alucard) "i never drink... wine." so i gather that you didn't even drink enough wine to get drunk on, but had the great-grandmother of all hangovers later anyway. at least it's over with now.
i also take it that the "issues" you refer to are related to your past interactions with the legal system?
alas, there is no way we could even continue to pay rent, let alone pay off all our overdue bills, on the pittance we'd earn by taking in washing, typing papers, etc. - either my husband has to get a job (and his issues, in terms of age and up-to-date knowledge, are similar to yours), or we have to get funding for the business, sufficient to pay ourselves salaries as well as proceed with the development of the product. or we have to win the lottery :-(
Highlands is actually quite a small town, especially now, without the "summer people". there may very well be a "community" here, of people who've lived here a long time, but it certainly doesn't include us. i could have used a "community" of friends to help with moving, too. but my "community" is scattered from Scotland to Australia, and spread across the USA; none of you could have been here to haul boxes and furniture... and none of you are in a position to help me financially. i have to hope that the cycles will continue to change, and if "what goes up must come down", so whatever goes down (our finances) will soon come back up.
US news reports haven't said anything about the tsunami affecting Australia, but based on a map i saw, it could easily have hit the west coast. i hope the folks in Perth and other western locations weren't inundated...
I consumed about 3 bottles of red wine. It's fairly common for me to "overdo" the alcohol when it's made available as I tend to consume it fairly quickly as I have done with anything from tea to coffee since I was very small. The "after-effects" come later.
As for "the legal system". What can I say ? If I am to answer that I should probably do so off-line.
I doubt if you would make a great deal of money from small commercial exploits but it's a job-seeking strategy whereby you gain insight into the community in which you live. I have looked up the area on a map and have a good idea of where it is, including the street.
I'm letting 2004 drift into 2005. I watched "Groundhog Day" yesterday evening which is a movie I enjoy. Today I slept.
I have no great magik. I still have green candles and I can say "Abracadabra". It's worth a try :-)
all well-meant abracadabras will be accepted with embarrassing gratitude...
I haven't been well enough to even mumble "abracadabra". To be effective I believe the word has to be "felt". In magic (without the "k") it appears to be used for instantaneous results, much like "hocus pocus".
It's origins appear vague but according to some it has Jewish/Greek connotations denoting some vague reference to "the father, son and spirit".
I have found some sense of "recovery" in caffeine. I believe that has provided my system with a needed boost.
I feel magik to be done has to be done properly, with feeling and in good health. I have sent suitable if wobbly vibes into the atmosphere.
oh dear. what's been making you wobbly? (at least, if caffeine makes you feel better, it's a freely available drug...)
as for "abracadabra"...
Word History: "Abracadabra," says the magician, unaware that at one time the thing to do with the word was wear it, not say it. Abracadabra was a magic word, the letters of which were arranged in an inverted pyramid and worn as an amulet around the neck to protect the wearer against disease or trouble. One fewer letter appeared in each line of the pyramid, until only A remained to form the vertex of the triangle. As the letters disappeared, so supposedly did the disease or trouble. While magicians still use abracadabra in their performances, the word itself has acquired another sense, "foolish or unintelligible talk."
the charm itself looks like this:
"hocus pocus" is another story altogether. it's a bastardization of the phrase "hoc est corpus" ("this is the body"), from the Latin Mass. you may also have heard or seen it as "hocus pocus dominocus", which is probably the original - from "hoc est corpus Domine", "this is the body of the Lord". the priest changes the wafer into the flesh of Christ - the magician changes one thing into another (a bouquet of flowers into a live dove, for example). to the uneducated peasantry, and to the magician playing tricks on them, the Latin of the Mass was unintelligible, which is why it came out garbled - but anything that sounded like Latin, even if it was actually gibberish, just had to be some sort of Words of Power!
yes, i've finally gotten my broadband access back...
"wobbly" = extreme exhaustion possibly caused by one or either of:-
a) circulatory problems arising from cardiac related issues and/or
b) (reactive) depression (acute)
Stimulating the system with caffeine appears to have lifted my spirits and improved cardiac related symptoms which as previously indicated (Westmead Hospital) could be the result of nervous tension ("atypical chest pain" or "it's from the head, not the chest")
since, medically, caffeine is much more likely to make cardiac problems worse instead of better, i would tend to agree with the latter diagnosis. i'm in favor of anything that makes you feel better!